I haven’t read in ages, and I blame Game of Thrones. Okay, so maybe part of it is that I feel like I don’t have enough time. But I used to make time. I used to read. A lot. So much so, that when I was younger my parents would worry I was depressed or something and to the point where my parents even asked my sister to find out if I was okay. I was okay, though granted, I hated working at my parents’ restaurant when I was a teen, so I liked to read, especially fantasy novels, to forget about work.
But recently that changed. I have been trying to read Game of Thrones, the first A Song of Ice and Fire novel, but for some reason I just can’t get through it. My sister keeps telling me to just skip it, but I can’t just skip a book. Though I haven’t finished a book in forever, I still follow my rules of reading. But to be honest, I think a big reason, is that yes, it’s tedious because it’s all politics at this point, but also, I haven’t had a lot of time lately.
Since beginning my weight loss journey, I’ve been working hard on exercising, and my workouts have been taking a lot more time now than they used to. And maybe reading so much is what encouraged my heaviness when I was younger. I had to finish this chapter, this book, so I couldn’t possibly go and maybe walk or something. Maybe subconsciously, I worry that I’ll fall into old habits? Maybe now I’m reading too much into things. Obviously I’ll continue doing both, I just need to get past this book, and I’ll be back to my old self.
Hell, it kind of happened with Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell, and I both loved that book and didn’t exercise then. Maybe I’ll love Game of Thrones, even though it’s just another fantasy novel, and in my opinion not as gripping as the ones I used to read when I was a teen inadvertently scaring my parents into thinking I was depressed. Hey, maybe that’s the reason I haven’t been able to get through it? Maybe on a subconscious level I resent the fact that it is doing so well, when the books I loved as a teen did not reach my television screen? Okay, maybe definitely now I am reading too much into things.
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